DISCIPLINE IS BORING

 "DISCIPLINE CAN TAKE YOU PLACES MOTIVATION CANT"

Today is a gloomy day, for sure. I made a huge mistake but instead of crying like the other times, I only sat still and felt guiltless, which is supposed to be positive as I was able to restrain my negativity and the toxic thrill of blaming myself. However, this weird ignorance is even scarier. 

I am scared of myself being accustomed to failure, and the scenario of me feeling contented and fine with my inferiority literally freaks me out. In the past, I was a pessimistic and negative person who constantly felt insecure about my own achievements and appearance. The current version of me differs: a girl running away from reality and establishing her own delusional shelter.

I do not know if my ignorance is the result of my maturity or the consequence of my laziness. Many people tell me that growing up means you do not blame yourself or regret what you have done, you would rather focus on fixing the mistakes. And I hope this is my improvement.

Discipline is boring but you surely enjoy its result. Therefore, I hope each of you will win a battle between what you want and what you wish every day. 

I missed the deadline for my scholarship because of my awful overconfidence and irresponsibility. I am not gonna cry or voice my concern over my parents anymore. I learn from it and I know that there will be no chance for me to write one more post like this. 

WORK HARD FOR YOUR DREAM.

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